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Loving Myself
Learning to love myself has been a long and hard journey, and some days I think that I may not have even reached the finish line. Physical activity has made me feel better about myself in ways I'd never imagined. I am strong. I am capable. I am worth all of the hard work in my efforts to be the best me possible. I can be or do anything. I can make myself powerful.
How I Do It
The first step in loving myself for real came last year, when I cut all of my 'best friends' out of my life. They were constantly partying and pressuring me to do the same, and indulging in hurtful habits like gossip and lying and backstabbing. I had a constant knot in my stomach for fear that I would be the next target, and when one day I was, instead of rolling over and playing dead I said f*ck 'em and left, never looked back. I have stopped drinking, because I did it in the first place because of peer pressure and now I only listen to what I want. I work very hard very often to achieve my goals, through crossfit, healthy eating, attending school, etc. I only keep loving people in my social life, and I feel much better off without all kinds of 'fake friends'.
Not Loving Myself Enough
was a problem that I used to have. I previously had an eating disorder and would torture my body because I didn't love myself or the world that I was living in. When first starting on my journey towards getting fit, people would watch me struggle and call me pathetic, say they would never want to be by my side in an emergency. They purposely made me suffer, all the while indulging the prettier girls who were, in reality, just as unfit as me. These days are in the past, but often when I want to give up on a workout I think of them, telling me I'm pathetic as I give my all, and I'm filled with a violent new energy. They can't make me feel bad about myself anymore, but I hope one day I can make them feel bad. <- Thats really immature but true lol.
Wow, you really had to do some work to get to where you are. Your 'best friends' sound like they were hot messes, glad you can hold your head high and move toward your goals. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteThis is great! I give you great credit for taking the action you did in regards to your "friends"; it's not easy to do at any age. Best of luck on your journey. :-)
ReplyDeleteHey thanks for your comments! You are a great motivator and example that we can expect more from people. Nice job!
ReplyDeleteWell done for choosing what was best for you, not the easiest route to take. I know how hard it is to make a decision like that but well done :D
ReplyDeletei agree with everyone else -- standing up to friends is no joke & WAY harder than standing up to enemies.
ReplyDeleteso yay for you -- sounds like ya got your shit together & are on the perfect path!
keep rockin' it mama & thanks SO much for linking up!!!
xxoo
You are so great! I have also cut friends out of my life that weren't really true friends, and sound very much like yours! It's not easy, but so important!
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